There are days, dear Lord, when I fear
and I let go of your mighty hand
when all around me danger looms here
I am weak and deaf to your commands.
Yet your loving hand never strays from me
How could I have ever taken my eyes away
from your strength and presence free
while I begin to sink beneath this deadly fray?
It is at my worst that I turn again to You
how could I have let go of your strength and might?
Your love shines and pierces all the way through
my heart and within this sinking darkest of night.
Though I, the fool, am ashamed of my misgivings
You clothe me in riches beyond my deserving
Such love I cannot express to you in serving
all my days, all my efforts will I devote into your keeping.
In the waning hours before the sunrise
when soft light wisps through curtained window panes
and before the sounds of busy lives begin again
I renew my conversation with my God.
In blankets wrapped and pillow propped
before these feet place themselves into gravity
and as my eyes have yet to batten a lash in focus
I find again my deep connection with my God.
And in my counting of as many breaths
these lungs are filled with countless blessings
all my hopes and needs begin and end
with these early morning times of confessions.
So, dear Lord before I begin
and the world with all of its chaos ensues
allow me one more moment here with You
let me linger but for another and then…
come with me into the fray.
“He will not let your foot slip – he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep…the Lord watches over you – the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.” -Psalm 121:3-6
Isn’t it encouraging to know that we are never alone? Despite circumstances in life, we have a God who loves and watches over us! I find solace in these verses. To me it brings to mind a sovereign God who cares about me and wants to provide and protect me. He wants to do that for all of us if we allow Him to. This wonderful provision and protection comes straight for the source of all life, and if He says that He will not let our feet slip then we are armed with the best and the strongest!
“Got any rivers you think are impossible? Got any mountains you cannot tunnel through? God specializes in things thought impossible, and He can do what no other God can do!”
God can do this for all of us today! He wants us to know that He is there for us and that He is watching over our lives. Find comfort in these verses today, and celebrate His care and love through the way that you live it!
Sometimes recalling certain memories can be like peeling the paint from an old weathered house. You know the old house needs it, it’s crying for it and yet the whole facade will change. Peeling back the paint will remove the years of character and sometimes charm, but underneath it all you know the walls need to breathe, to be set free, and sometimes the old paint holds moisture in, green and molding smelling ripe like mildew. All unseen by the naked eye without the begrudging labor of the paint peeler.
Withholding our memories, holding them at arm’s length, quivering like a lost puppy who whimpers and shies away from everything including a loving hand, we fear what we will find underneath it all! We fear that others will be horrified when the truth is revealed…memories are like prison bars and razor wire fences. We’re a captivated audience of one, too afraid to move…to make a break for it. Too afraid of our own shadows lurking within corners that we’ve created. Memories that we avoid do not fade, but rather they deepen in their staining. And we within our self-made prisons peer out at them from behind our bar windows, clutching fragments of sun light instead of basking in it.
This old house needs a new, fresh coat of glossy clean paint that sparkles in the sunlit day and gleams when the stars in the night sky comes a callin’…but first this old decrepit brown weathered tinged paint must be peeled back…we must reveal our hurts, our wounds, our heartaches, we can’t just paint over the old for the old with infect and deflect the new.
So with weapon of choice in hand we, knowing it to be the right thing to do, must embrace the mess, confess to the wrongs, embrace what it is now, relish the opportunity to begin again. Peel back the pain that harbors itself beneath the paint. Let it breathe free and when the sun has baked its cold moisture away…this old house can take on a new creation.
My goal starting tomorrow is to post a devotional thought per day until February 15, 2012…let see if I can do it. Here goes nothing.